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“When I became convinced that the Universe is natural–that all the ghosts and gods are myths, there entered into my brain, into my soul, into every drop of my blood, the sense, the feeling, the joy of freedom. The walls of my prison crumbled and fell, the dungeon was flooded with light, and all the bolts, and bars, and manacles became dust. I was no longer a servant, a serf, or a slave. There was for me no master in all the wide world–not even in infinite space. I was free–free to think, to express my thoughts–free to live to my own ideal–free to live for myself and those I loved–free to use all my faculties, all my senses–free to spread imagination’s wings–free to investigate, to guess and dream and hope–free to judge and determine for myself–free to reject all ignorant and cruel creeds, all the “inspired” books that savages have produced, and all the barbarous legends of the past–free from popes and priests–free from all the “called” and “set apart”–free from sanctified mistakes and holy lies–free from the fear of eternal pain–free from the winged monsters of the night–free from devils, ghosts, and gods. For the first time I was free. There were no prohibited places in all the realms of thought–no air, no space, where fancy could not spread her painted wings–no chains for my limbs–no lashes for my back–no fires for my flesh–no master’s frown or threat–no following another’s steps–no need to bow, or cringe, or crawl, or utter lying words. I was free. I stood erect and fearlessly, joyously, faced all worlds.

And then my heart was filled with gratitude, with thankfulness, and went out in love to all the heroes, the thinkers who gave their lives for the liberty of hand and brain–for the freedom of labor and thought–to those who fell in the fierce fields of war, to those who died in dungeons bound with chains–to those who proudly mounted scaffold’s stairs–to those whose bones were crushed, whose flesh was scarred and torn–to those by fire consumed–to all the wise, the good, the brave of every land, whose thoughts and deeds have given freedom to the sons of men. And then I vowed to grasp the torch that they had held, and hold it high, that light might conquer darkness still.”

— Robert G. Ingersoll

“The Cosmos is all that is, or ever was, or ever will be.” – Carl Sagan, Cosmos

Carl Sagan’s series, Cosmos, was done in 1980. How the FUCK did I not see these videos until 2013? Even since then, science has progressed forward. Holy shit. Fuck.

I’m astounded that there is so much that I don’t know that we know much about. We know that there are hundreds of billions stars just in our galaxy. We know that there are hundreds of billions of galaxies. How was it that I not taught these basic things? How did I not know?

Evolution is well documented. But, hey, creation and all that.

I wonder how my life would have been different if I had discovered these things much earlier. It was told to me that the dinosaurs didn’t live hundreds of millions of years ago. They were killed a few years ago in a flood.

Fuck that bullshit. I’m angry that people tried to tell me that there was some sort of proof that the earth was only a few thousand years old.

But yet, we know – most scientists explain, that the earth is some four and half billion years old because of REAL, physical evidence.

I wish I could go back to “kid” me and say, yes, dinosaurs died out some 165 million years ago. I was told something different and because those in authority were the ones telling me, I, of course believed it. But it is utter bullshit. There are layers of geological strata all over the world that match up and confirm this “supposed” 165 million years. There is not a question among geologists. Fuck. Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck.

I wish I was telling this to myself 15 or 20 years ago and saying, “WE KNOW ABOUT SOME OF THIS FUCKING STUFF”. There is not a question!!! There are questions about some things, but those questions are not about the things we have figured out.

13.7 some billion years there was something like a big bang that started our universe. Of this, scientists are almost all in accord. How the fuck did I only learn this in the last couple years of my life? Science has many answers to give, but we can’t ignore the answers it has already given us!! So much knowledge and no one gives a shit. Or at least we’re not expressing it properly if people don’t.

The atoms in our bodies came from atoms formed in stars going through a process of fusion, creating the heavier elements of carbon, oxygen, nitrogen, et al. That is where they came from, there is evidence. We can observe this process in other stars.

How I wish there was evidence of a loving, benevolent, “God”. There is none. I’ve racked my brain trying to find some – to hope that maybe it’s possible. That maybe there is a higher power interested in my life. But that, now, seems egotistical to me. I have no more belief in a god than a Santa Claus. Why should there be? If a biblical god exists, it sees he should express himself more clearly.

It requires faith to believe in a God. That is defined by the Bible as “evidence in things not seen”. That is clearly not scientific.

I’ve had people tell me that God exists outside the realm of the natural and observable. Yet, we have scientific instruments that can observe things outside the realm of human observality. Devices that can observe microwave and ultraviolet waves, as well as radio waves. There’s a ton of things going on that humans can’t directly observe that we have scientific instruments for. Yet, somehow, “God” is outside of these things as well. But somehow, we can know what he/she is telling us? Did our brains somehow become able to detect things unobservable by any scientific instruments?

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK. I just wish I had been told at an earlier age about the things we know. The big bang. Evolution. Other science shit. Fuck. It would have given me a better understanding of where I was going with a theology degree, and what it meant when I fully believe that a superior being created everything. Because a lot of that stuff is just plain bullshit.



*This post was inspired by philhellenes and his Youtube video, “Why Didn’t Anybody Tell Me?“.